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For Those Who Rely On Sharp Objects

Don’t you dare skip the page if you know you’re one of us!! Guys, I understand you. I know why we do what we do. That split second of relief when the blood begins to flow is such a high… And sometimes we do it just to make sure we’re still alive. I’m not going to lecture you with all the psycho-babble that we hear so often about cutting. I know it’s not a suicide attempt, if we wanted to “off” ourselves; we could’ve done so long ago. We’re not stupid, we know exactly where and how to make it fatal. I know it’s not attention seeking, it’s a cry for help, for love. It’s an emotional outlet for us. We feel have no other way to release our pain, fear, anger and so on. This is just like an emotional “tap”, it’s how we get rid of our feelings… They call it an unhealthy “coping mechanism”, and I guess you could call it that, because it is how we cope. When you cut, you open the “tap” up and the blood flows, “removing” our feelings as it flows, as the water in tap a removes any blockages that are in its way… I don’t want this to sound like a lecture, so please know, it’s NOT intended to be a lecture! God doesn’t want us to hurt this way, both emotionally and physically. Jesus was severely beaten and whipped, losing large amounts of blood… He shed His blood for us, so we wouldn’t need to shed our blood… I know for one, that I sometimes use the cutting as punishment for when I feel I’ve done something really wrong. And I know it’s not right, Jesus’ blood was shed so we could repent and be forgiven. So what right do I have to shed my blood, and harm my body (which Jesus paid for with His life)? Our bodies are the temple of a Mighty, Living God, imagine how we are hurting God every time we run that sharp object over our skin. God is getting sadder and sadder whilst we sit there eagerly awaiting the blood to flow. The Bible speaks of it being wrong for us to cut our flesh for the dead, but I know from experience, when that temptation comes a’knocking, it’s so hard to resist. I sit there thinking, “God, I know this isn’t right but I just can’t help it, I really need to do this…” I’ve told myself over and over that this is the last time, but guess what… I still fall prey to it! I’m going to do my best to get past my three-month milestone (I can normally hold out for up to three months, then I cave in)… I'd surrendered most of my blades to Cinna, and after almost a year i gave in again. But i refuse to do it again. Once I get to three months again, I’ll take it one month at a time… I hope this helps you guys in some way, if you want, you can e-mail me and chat about this, even anonymously… My e-mail is lizelle.s@ananzi.co.za! Please don’t hesitate to e-mail me with any questions, suggestions, or if you just need someone to talk to-I’m here and more than ready to listen… You have my Spiritual shoulders to cry on, my Spiritual ears to listen to you, and my Spiritual arms to hold you and if by God’s grace I feel I can help you, my God-given words to guide you… Keep strong my friends…
God bless.

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